[ But he doesn't turn it down. He just wanted her to know! That's what he said! Yeah. He raises his right hand, assuming that he's holding it out towards her. If she places the bottle against his palm, he'll wrap his fingers around it tight enough to keep a good grip.
There's a few irritating misses with the straw, however, and he ends up prodding himself in the face with it once or twice before managing.
( She sounds affable enough, and to be honest, that he's complaining actually makes her feel better -- like there's a limitus test where if Caesar isn't complaining, she needs to start exponentially worrying about what's going on.
He gets the water handled, and she has to laugh, at the complaint on taste -- it's a short bout of laughter tinged with a measure of relief. And fair or not, associative or not, she ends up asking something about five months displaced and unrelated to water at all -- )
Did you really have lap dogs at the camp you were in when you were dealing with the fighting Hugo was doing, in your last war?
( This is totally why you're dating her, she bets. Right after the laundry, it's for exactly these sorts of things! )
Of course. The castle decided to use them as guard dogs, but why I'll never understand. They're tiny and not very useful! But considering the captain of the guards there was a little girl, I guess that might explain it...
( She's smiling enough at a mental image of a bunch of chihuahua or pomeranian sized dogs defending anything, but tacking that little tidbit on makes it even more puzzling. )
How'd that happen? I could get the dogs, if what you need is something to bark a lot when people are coming in, instead of needing something that can hamstring or tear out throats, but the captain of the guards was a little girl?
( Looking for something for her hands to do, she tucks the blanket in close to his hip, then lower by his thigh. )
After all, what's that they say? Wonderful things come in small packages!
( Pats out the blanket on top of his thigh with a satisfied smile, brushing it straight downward. Something as small as a cockroach lisening in is enough to turn tides in some instances. It's the action and what yu do, not the size, that matters! )
Well, little as in a few years younger than I am, but how that happened, I have no clue. If the castle lord decided to let her go on as that, it's not entirely my business. Of course, he was hardly any older than her!
[ He can complain about Budehuc all day, don't get him staaarted. ]
( But if he's complaining, he's distracted until he drifts off! And she can listen to the dulcet tones of his... uh. Complaints.
One of many reasons why Collette never expects a sweet anything that's not along the lines of Caesar's humor out of his mouth toward her ever: expectations like these.)
So what, eleven? Kids get thrown into all kinds of things... How old was the castle lord? Did he just inherit suddenly or something?
( A little more tucking in and fussing with smoothing the blanket out because she can't sit still yet. )
Fourteen, maybe? Though now that I think of it, that's about the same as Hugo, but he at least had an idea of how to fight. As for Thomas, fifteen, I think. He was handed the place in hopes he'd never bother his big trader council father again or something, sent out to the middle of nowhere like that.
[ He's not sure why he's adding in all the details like that. Normally he wouldn't! But he's woozy and blind and who cares if someone knows about Thomas anyway. He'll give the water another try before eventually just grimacing and holding it away from him.
Which is to say she should probably take it away before he drops it (not that he would mean to). ]
( They were all kids, too. Something about that hits her hard, twisting up her stomach as she reaches out to gently pry the waterbottle out of his hand. Bred for war or not, tied up in a family history that married you to the worst aspects of humanity, she can't find it right in her head. Not in a modern context, not even getting slow glimpses of the world he and Nash (and Elza and Clive) came from.
He wants to be so good at something horrible. Competition? Family rivalry? His own innate desire to do what he can to help through minimizing losses? Collette doesn't voice any of her questions, making a noise of affirmation in the back of her throat, reaching out with her hand to brush his hair to the sides of his face once the waterbottle was in her lap. )
Then you all ended up in the middle of something big in the middle of nowhere. Figures, doesn't it?
( Hugo as a general. God, that world implies age to her. But he's as old as she is, or was, when she'd been drafted to fight, and when she'd died.
There are too many kids their age tied up in this, she realizes, with a step back mentally she doesn't normally take. Too many, and not enough already warped to expect it, like she is (she doesn't know what to make of that), or like he is (that she can better quanitfy). )
[ More a figurehead, even if one could call him the leader or general of that army. Picking up True Fire had stuck that kid into the role, whether he'd wanted it or not. As for why Caesar had been there, just happened to be there, when everything fell into conflict...
Well...
He gives a shrug and sinks further down against the pillows, eyes opening just enough to squint out into a world that's nothing but dark to him. They don't focus on anything, lacking anything to focus on at all. ]
( What was he chasing after? She wonders, staring at her fingers at his temple. She doesn't want to look at this eyes. It's as if part of her's scared to see the green glossed over with that pale color some people had when they went blind, due to disease. It's stupid. She knows it's nothing like that.
It sucks, wanting to fix things and not being equipped to do anything but the stupidest things. )
[ One part of it was tagging along on Apple's little quest to study the history of the Grasslands, but as if he'd offer to help study things without an ulterior motive. ]
I was looking for that guy. Always causing trouble. App didn't know, not really, not until the ducks.
[ Yes, the ducks. Duck Village. Where he'd refused to stay at the inn there, it was too damp and moldy! What from being in a village. That was in the middle of a lake. And. Yeah. But his voice is fading and his pauses between words growing. She won't have to avoid his eyes for long, since they've slid shut again. ]
App? Figured you out when you were with the ducks?
( She doesn't expect an answer, but she asks nonetheless, listening and watching as the drugs take him into a deep sleep. She hopes he doesn't dream when he's there. He needs the rest. )
Makes me wonder when you knew Hugo from. The Academy?
( Quietly asked by now, as if that... makes it less of a question spoken. By now, she full expects him to be asleep. )
Hugo, at a school in Harmonia? But she's right. She'll get no further clarification, her expectation right on the bullseye. He's fallen asleep and, hopefully, will stay that way for some time. ]
( She'd have appreciated the laughter, if huffed, snorting and pointing out she has no way to know what she doesn't know.
With no response except steady breathing, she finds herself letting go of a breath she hadn't realized she was holding. )
Oh man, C.
( She pulls her hand away, bringing the blankets into order across his chest. She says nothing more for a moment, listening to the bustle of the few other people in the general area. Clinics. Never short on some kind of activity.
In the end, she smiles, feeling alternately tired and scared. She can't let herself think on what if's, but for a moment it's tempting. )
I thought when you loved someone, it was supposed to be all butterflies and laughing and good times. I knew better, but you think things, seeing movies and TV growing up. I wasn't really planning on it, either, 'cause how things go around here. Figures that nothing really goes according to plan! Funny in a way.
( She smiles, for her own benefit. It is funny to her. She can see the amusement, feel it too. Leaning forward, she slides the palm of her hand under his hand, lifting his hand up toward her, careful of how she moves his arm. She clasps unresponsive fingers with her own, resting the back of his hand against her cheek for a moment. It's not the most comfortable position. So be it.
She sighs again, still smiling, worry knitting her forehead into wrinkles. )
I'm only going to say this once, you hear? ( Of course he didn't. That's the point. It's cowardly, but she's okay with being a bit of a coward now and then. Sorta. Turning her head, she brushes her lips against the back of his hand. When she speaks, her lips brush against his skin again, eyes closing. ) I love you. You'll be back to normal before you know it. Okay? Get well soon.
( Rearranging his arm back down by his side, leaving the other where it is, partly folded over his abdomen, she opens her eyes to study his face. He looks more relaxed like this. He'll probably start drooling if he stays so deeply under for long enough. That'll be good. Enough relaxation before the stress falls back down on his shoulders, caught up in things he had no way to know.
It'll work out. That much she believes. )
Catch you when you're up again! I promise.
( She patted his hand with her fingertips, looking up and around for one of the Transports who worked in the clinic. Might as well figure out what she can do in the meantime! It was going to be a long October. )
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[ But he doesn't turn it down. He just wanted her to know! That's what he said! Yeah. He raises his right hand, assuming that he's holding it out towards her. If she places the bottle against his palm, he'll wrap his fingers around it tight enough to keep a good grip.
There's a few irritating misses with the straw, however, and he ends up prodding himself in the face with it once or twice before managing.
And then... ]
...ugh... plastic taste.
[ Reused water bottles are the woooorst. ]
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( She sounds affable enough, and to be honest, that he's complaining actually makes her feel better -- like there's a limitus test where if Caesar isn't complaining, she needs to start exponentially worrying about what's going on.
He gets the water handled, and she has to laugh, at the complaint on taste -- it's a short bout of laughter tinged with a measure of relief. And fair or not, associative or not, she ends up asking something about five months displaced and unrelated to water at all -- )
Did you really have lap dogs at the camp you were in when you were dealing with the fighting Hugo was doing, in your last war?
( This is totally why you're dating her, she bets. Right after the laundry, it's for exactly these sorts of things! )
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[ Of all the things to ask! He frowns at that. ]
Of course. The castle decided to use them as guard dogs, but why I'll never understand. They're tiny and not very useful! But considering the captain of the guards there was a little girl, I guess that might explain it...
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( She's smiling enough at a mental image of a bunch of chihuahua or pomeranian sized dogs defending anything, but tacking that little tidbit on makes it even more puzzling. )
How'd that happen? I could get the dogs, if what you need is something to bark a lot when people are coming in, instead of needing something that can hamstring or tear out throats, but the captain of the guards was a little girl?
( Looking for something for her hands to do, she tucks the blanket in close to his hip, then lower by his thigh. )
After all, what's that they say? Wonderful things come in small packages!
( Pats out the blanket on top of his thigh with a satisfied smile, brushing it straight downward. Something as small as a cockroach lisening in is enough to turn tides in some instances. It's the action and what yu do, not the size, that matters! )
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[ He can complain about Budehuc all day, don't get him staaarted. ]
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One of many reasons why Collette never expects a sweet anything that's not along the lines of Caesar's humor out of his mouth toward her ever: expectations like these.)
So what, eleven? Kids get thrown into all kinds of things... How old was the castle lord? Did he just inherit suddenly or something?
( A little more tucking in and fussing with smoothing the blanket out because she can't sit still yet. )
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[ He's not sure why he's adding in all the details like that. Normally he wouldn't! But he's woozy and blind and who cares if someone knows about Thomas anyway. He'll give the water another try before eventually just grimacing and holding it away from him.
Which is to say she should probably take it away before he drops it (not that he would mean to). ]
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He wants to be so good at something horrible. Competition? Family rivalry? His own innate desire to do what he can to help through minimizing losses? Collette doesn't voice any of her questions, making a noise of affirmation in the back of her throat, reaching out with her hand to brush his hair to the sides of his face once the waterbottle was in her lap. )
Then you all ended up in the middle of something big in the middle of nowhere. Figures, doesn't it?
( Hugo as a general. God, that world implies age to her. But he's as old as she is, or was, when she'd been drafted to fight, and when she'd died.
There are too many kids their age tied up in this, she realizes, with a step back mentally she doesn't normally take. Too many, and not enough already warped to expect it, like she is (she doesn't know what to make of that), or like he is (that she can better quanitfy). )
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Well...
He gives a shrug and sinks further down against the pillows, eyes opening just enough to squint out into a world that's nothing but dark to him. They don't focus on anything, lacking anything to focus on at all. ]
Not really. I knew he'd be there. Just not why...
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( What was he chasing after? She wonders, staring at her fingers at his temple. She doesn't want to look at this eyes. It's as if part of her's scared to see the green glossed over with that pale color some people had when they went blind, due to disease. It's stupid. She knows it's nothing like that.
It sucks, wanting to fix things and not being equipped to do anything but the stupidest things. )
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[ One part of it was tagging along on Apple's little quest to study the history of the Grasslands, but as if he'd offer to help study things without an ulterior motive. ]
I was looking for that guy. Always causing trouble. App didn't know, not really, not until the ducks.
[ Yes, the ducks. Duck Village. Where he'd refused to stay at the inn there, it was too damp and moldy! What from being in a village. That was in the middle of a lake. And. Yeah. But his voice is fading and his pauses between words growing. She won't have to avoid his eyes for long, since they've slid shut again. ]
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( She doesn't expect an answer, but she asks nonetheless, listening and watching as the drugs take him into a deep sleep. She hopes he doesn't dream when he's there. He needs the rest. )
Makes me wonder when you knew Hugo from. The Academy?
( Quietly asked by now, as if that... makes it less of a question spoken. By now, she full expects him to be asleep. )
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Hugo, at a school in Harmonia? But she's right. She'll get no further clarification, her expectation right on the bullseye. He's fallen asleep and, hopefully, will stay that way for some time. ]
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With no response except steady breathing, she finds herself letting go of a breath she hadn't realized she was holding. )
Oh man, C.
( She pulls her hand away, bringing the blankets into order across his chest. She says nothing more for a moment, listening to the bustle of the few other people in the general area. Clinics. Never short on some kind of activity.
In the end, she smiles, feeling alternately tired and scared. She can't let herself think on what if's, but for a moment it's tempting. )
I thought when you loved someone, it was supposed to be all butterflies and laughing and good times. I knew better, but you think things, seeing movies and TV growing up. I wasn't really planning on it, either, 'cause how things go around here. Figures that nothing really goes according to plan! Funny in a way.
( She smiles, for her own benefit. It is funny to her. She can see the amusement, feel it too. Leaning forward, she slides the palm of her hand under his hand, lifting his hand up toward her, careful of how she moves his arm. She clasps unresponsive fingers with her own, resting the back of his hand against her cheek for a moment. It's not the most comfortable position. So be it.
She sighs again, still smiling, worry knitting her forehead into wrinkles. )
I'm only going to say this once, you hear? ( Of course he didn't. That's the point. It's cowardly, but she's okay with being a bit of a coward now and then. Sorta. Turning her head, she brushes her lips against the back of his hand. When she speaks, her lips brush against his skin again, eyes closing. ) I love you. You'll be back to normal before you know it. Okay? Get well soon.
( Rearranging his arm back down by his side, leaving the other where it is, partly folded over his abdomen, she opens her eyes to study his face. He looks more relaxed like this. He'll probably start drooling if he stays so deeply under for long enough. That'll be good. Enough relaxation before the stress falls back down on his shoulders, caught up in things he had no way to know.
It'll work out. That much she believes. )
Catch you when you're up again! I promise.
( She patted his hand with her fingertips, looking up and around for one of the Transports who worked in the clinic. Might as well figure out what she can do in the meantime! It was going to be a long October. )